Is Life Beautiful??

My life is a game and staying away from people who actually mean something to me earns me so many points that I can win anything I want! I guess this is what I have to say to myself to move on.
It’s pissing off really! All my people are leaving or have left to some place out of Bangalore!
Su- Pune, Navu- Mysore, Hrishi- UK, Pratty- US, Sunne- UK, Swetha- UK, Doddi- UK, Sahana- US, Strum- Chikmangalore.
Bloody hell! Absolutely none of my first cousins are in Bloody Bangalore!
I have turned into some kind of a loner now. Uttara keeps to herself most of the times or she is with her other friends. Sup is quite busy with her college. I hardly get to meet her. I guess I’ve only been with Pooja lately. Yeah it’s fun meeting her.
Apart from that, life has been a big bore! Going to college is pretty boring too. I haven’t had football practice for three weeks now. Sigh..

I just bid goodbye to Hrishi, who will leave to London in approximately 5 hours. I stayed at his place for 3 days. It was horrible to part. While I was trying to act all normal n all Sanjana came to me, held my shirt tight and said “Pyees hogbeda”! Fuck! You have no clue how hard it is to refrain from crying when someone says something like that and actually means it! She tugged on my shirt twice, thrice and said “Pyees hogbeda”. I saw her cute little eyes shining with tears. That one little touch brought tears in my eyes too! The innocence, the fact that she actually meant it, I thought I was going to break down then and there. But, I don’t have the courage (or whatever it takes) to cry in front of a lot of people. I sat in my car and started listening to music. Ah! To brighten things up My Immortal started playing. I wept like shit! I thought of Simba, Su, Sanjana and everyone who isn’t with me and cried. At the same time I was trying to hide my face from the rest of them. Now I think “Wtf!” because I’m letting all of you know that I cried! :P

Bah, I just want it to be over so I can go back to being miserable about people rather than miserable about the lack of
people.

PS: Sorry about this Post. It’s so boring and filled with bullshit. If I had read it in someone else’s blog, I would’ve thought “Heh! Get a Life Loser!”
But then again, I feel a lot better after writing this..

Cheers?
Swat